Today, you asked why I painted my jeans blue and pink, when they already had white on them. I giggled. YEAH, I KNOW, GIGGLED. How lame am I... And told you that those were a different pair.
It makes me happy that you notice the little things like that.
I don't know why I get my hopes up though. I know we won't happen.
Even if you ever did like me again, which I highly doubt would happen, no one would ever accept us together. All of my friends hate you. We belong to two totally separate groups. We would be extremely shunned if we ever got together. I know I shouldn't let anyone but me control my decision, but they are my friends and I care about their opinion. Probably more than I should, but still.
I feel like such a horrible person when I wish you and your girlfriend would break up. She seems like a really like girl, and you guys seem rather happy. I feel so selfish. And I`m really not enjoying it.